Wednesday, October 29, 2008
Yesterday was a very long and tiring day for me..morning i accompanied my parents to the CPF buliding..there was a hot malay guy serving us and i was making a fool out of myself in front of him.. and my dad called me a cuckoo infront of him..so embarrasing la.. haha but then again..this is not new for me...getting embarrassed in front of guys..hahahaha
After that i went to meet Sinna.. he was looking so sleepy..he only came back today morning after roaming around little india with his frens.. After spending abt 1 hour plus with him, i rushed to rosey's place...i missed her so much.. Nasri, Cs, shaktee and my darling haruna was there as well.. we had so much of fun.. we played card games and there was also entertainment frm CS, shaktee and rosey.. who apparently did pole dancing for us using the curtain ribbon..hahaha.. and i was being the videographer recording the dance..
Following that, i and shaktee made our way to haruna's place..we were there for about an hour.. i was updating Mahesan, haru's elder bro, on my love life issues.
Im going with the flow now.. but sometimes i wonder, for how long more am i suppose to go with the flow..?
6:16 PM
Sunday, October 26, 2008
Today was a very stressful day for me.. everyone in my life is officially stressing me... my family.. my ex.. sinna.. and my fren...
My parents are planning to shift to a rental hse for the time being while waiting for the hse loan to be approved.. Meanwhile me and my sis will go stay in my aunt's place.. i cant believe this is happening.. I wonder why the fcuking loan is taking this long to be approved.. I really want my own home.. My mum cant stay wit out seeing me face for a few days.. i wonder how she is gonna stay wif my dad alone, apart frm me and my sister.. and i dun noe how im gonna stay apart frm my parents for so long also.. this really sucks.. i dun noe who to blame for this situation..
Letchu msged me yesterday night asking me if i had forgotten him.. like wad the hell? i msg u a couple of times and u dun respond and end up u ask me like this? I treated u like my own brother and end up u point finger at me and say that i have forgotten u and i dun treat u like u are important to me?
That fcuker msged me asking if i had transferred money to his acc.. i transferred twenty bucks in his acc yesterday.. he told me to pay him back everything and that its my fate.. then i told him that ya its my fate for meeting such a guy like u.. he then started calling me names and said that im cheap and all.. and told all his relatives wad i did.. Honestly i dun give a fcuk abt wad he or his family or relatives think abt me..I know that i didnt do anything wrong and i know that he told everyone wad i did and not wad he did.. cos he is a big time fcuker.. fuckers behave like this.. i jus wish that he wld jus die soon.. i know that u shldnt curse someone and all but personally i feel that he doesnt deserve to live tat all.. he is jus taking up the earth's space..given his size..hahahahahaha
Y must it always be me doing this and that for people? Its not that im complaining and all but jus that i feel that i always give and do my best for everyone and they dun seem to appreciate it.. end up they suddenly turn around and point fingers at me and say that its my fault and that i neva do this and neva do that..
While i was feeling so sucky and shitty about everything in my life, haruna invited me to her aunt's house prayers.. I felt so much better after that.. Her family is so nice and warm.. Haruna's mum referred to me as her adopted daughter cos they said that i looked like her..haha..her mum is one of the sweetest person i have ever seen.. she fed me some food while feeding Haruna also.. It felt really nice when someone else shows u so much of love and attention when u need it..and i got invited to her hse on Deepavali day itself.. Haruna's aunt also invited me to her hse..
I cant believe Deepavali is jus 2 days away.. it doesnt feel like Deepavali at all.. I feel that there is absolutely nothing happy in my life right now worth celebrating.. The only time im happy is when im wif my frens Haruna, siva and rosey.. they neva fail to make my day.. Thanks guys..!
7:48 AM
Tuesday, October 21, 2008
Sivashankar is the CUTEST boy in the whole wide world....
He is the best
And he is soooooooo HOT !!!!
We LOVE YOU Siva !!!!!!!
*** MUACKS ***
4:43 AM
Sunday, October 12, 2008
Your friendship is special
Like the flowers that bloom,
Or when a butterfly emerges
From within its cocoon...
You remind me of that butterfly,
Loving and free,
Bright and colorful,
For the world to see...
We will share sunshine and rainbows;
Sometimes, the rain and the snow;
We'll stand together through it,
While the cold winds blow...
When the time is right,
We won't stop to ask "Why?"
Our friendship will take flight
On the wings of a butterfly ...
After so long, im updating my blog..haiz.. so many things have happened this past wk. Its like my life is full of some update weekly..
First was my 21st birthday celebration organised by haruna, rosey, and sivashanker. Haruna and me went temple in the morning. Rosey got a cake for me and she was trying her best to hide it without much success. I noticed it and had to hide my smile and pretend as if i didnt notice it. After that we 3 plus lester went to a thai restaurant to eat and we cut the cake there. The moment was jus so sweet with my best frens being there wif me. Siva couldnt make it on time for lunch but he joined us for the movie house bunny. After the show we went out of vivo to eat the cake. The cake was really good. Haha.. Was expecting sinna bd wishes but i never got it till the end.. Towards the end i started getting depressed and went off to meet letchu, giving haruna and siva some time alone.. After meeting letchu, i came home feeling miserable. My parents were upset that they couldnt give me anything special and seeing their stressed faces made me more depressed and i started crying for everything.. Letchu called me but when he heard me cry he jus slammed the fone on me..
Another major update is that haruna and siva are together!!!! Haha.. am so happy for them both.. they make a very cute couple, complimenting each other. I love them both so much. May god bless them wif all the happiness in the world..
Am feeling kinda lost and upset right now.. so much of mixed emotions in me.. Both siva and letchu are very important to me and i love them both so much.. Im jus so worried that something may happen and our friendship will be affected.. I know siva must be feeling mad wif me and i hope that he doesnt stay angry wif me for long.. I hope he understands that im also feeling very stuck and am doing my best to make the situation right again.. I hope that this incident doesnt leave a scar in our friendship.. I really miss him alot.. I miss him scolding me ponna naiyae.. bitch..haha.. funny la that guy.. he doesnt fail to make me laugh.. I miss u siva shanker..and im sorry..
10:18 PM
